Friday Five

1. Explain why you started to journal/blog.

I have always enjoyed reading other people's journals/blogs. I had wanted my own for a while but never knew how to go about getting one. Then one day I left a comment in a blog entry of an online pal of mine and she emailed me and told me how to go about getting my own blog. I now have my very own journal/blog and I really like doing this. (Thanks Mel! :o))

2. Do people you interact with day to day or family members know about your journal/blog? Why or why not?

Nope, no one knows about this IRL. I don't know why I don't tell them, I just don't. I don't mind if anyone else reads it but for some reason, not family or RL friends. Maybe because if I need to complain about them and I do that here, they'd get their feelings hurt and I don't want that at all!

3. Do you have a theme for your journal/blog?

Well, the name is 'Life as I know it...'but that does not really mean it's the theme. So, I guess the answer would be no. I just write what I want and that's about it.

4. What direction would you like to have your journal/blog go in over the next year?

I want to learn more about web design and be able to make changes w/out having to ask Mel for help all the time. I want to one day have my own web site where I can do what I want and know what I'm doing. But, with a baby coming in the next year, I don't see that happening. But who knows.

5. Pimp five of your favorite journals/blogs.

I only read a few really. They are on my links list but, just for this question, here goes: Melange TaraZandraDotCom Madelah
And that's it for now. I'll add more to my reading (favs) list as time goes on.

Pregnancy hormones....

I am having cravings already. The other day I saw a commercial for salad dressing and I had to have a salad NOW!!!!! I bribed DH to go out and get me a salad. I tell you, it was the best dang salad I think I've ever eaten in my entire life!! LOL

Last night I decided I wanted pancakes for dinner so I made a couple up real quick from a mix. So, I had a lovely meal of pancakes and a salad for dinner. YUM!! My normal, non-pregnant part of my brain said 'EEWWWW!!' but the pregnant side won out and I enjoyed my dinner. DH was kind of disgusted at the thought of it though. LOL But at least I'm craving healthy stuff instead of chocolate or candy or ice cream or stuff like that, right??

I have been thinking a lot about having a homebirth this time. I found a midwife who lives about a half-hour from me. I need to see what my insurance covers and I also need to apply for the state insurance. We qualify but I've just been too forgetful and lazy to apply for it. I guess now I have to, and soon. I need to apply for WIC too. It'll help on the grocery bills for sure. Then, after I get all the insurance stuff settled, I need to go and talk to this midwife. I saw her picture online last night and she just 'looks' nice. Does that make sense? Besides, she's the closest one around here. If not her, I'd have to talk to a woman who lives an hour from me. She looked really nice too.
I am nervous about a home birth but I just 'feel' right about it. I've never gone the natural route before but always wanted to. I think this is my very last chance so I don't want to blow it. The more I think about it, the more I know this is what I want. Now I just have to make DH know that this is the right thing to do. He's very skeptical about home births. I think I can make him come around though. Besides, it's ME giving birth, not him. I think in the end he won't have much of a choice, will he???

We haven't told his parents yet. Not sure when we'll do that. I think it's sad that we feel the need to wait to tell them. Very sad. But, they have made it this way so what can ya do? I'm dying to tell the kids but I know we need to wait because then everyone will know and we don't want to tell everyone yet. I still can't believe we are going through this all over again. I thought we were done........

A new addition

I just found out today that I am pregnant.

I was worried that I might have been but now it's confirmed. I can not believe I am going to have another baby. I am in shock. I am not really excited this time. Once the shock of it wears off I think I'll be happier about it all but for now I am kind of down. This will make baby #4. FOUR kids!! Wow! I still can't believe this is real.

I'm not sure when we'll tell the kids. I'm somewhat pessimistic when it comes to this kind of thing. I worry about telling people in case I miscarry for whatever reason. I think we'll wait a little while to tell the kids and my in-laws. My kids will broadcast it all over creation and my in-laws won't react very well to the news. I can just hear my MIL say 'Aah, NO! Really!?' She won't be happy for me. When I got pregnant w/ my youngest she was really upset and didn't get excited about the baby until right at the end of my pregnancy. That hurt me so much. I realize all the reasons to not have more kids but if someone is pregnant, they are pregnant. Not much can be done about it. So, even if you don't like the idea of that person having a baby you can still be happy for them. Especially when it's your grandchild!!!!!!

So, I plan to wait a while before I tell them. Plus DH needs to get used to the idea first and that's going to take a while. He's 40 now and did NOT want more kids, at all. He's in shock and is disappointed I'm sure. I can't blame him. I kind of feel the same way. But I have the mothers instinct that kicks in and I'll be happy about it really quickly. He'll take a month or three to come around. LOL

Well, that's my big news.